Monthly Archives: October 2010

A Bug Perhaps?


Something’s wrong with my baby (netbook).  It’s sick.  I’m not sure if it’s a glitch, a bug, or a virus.  I’ve been searching the net for possible causes but a number of things keep turning up.  I think I need to have it checked but I’ve been so lethargic for the whole day that I ended up just staying home instead of going out.

SIGH…

I need to have it fixed as soon as possible.  I don’t want to encounter problems when I’m doing my work, surfing the net, or just plainly enjoying myself with games and watching movies.  Wish I had someone to go with me though.

Tomorrow, we have no work so maybe I’ll visit the shop where I bought this.  I just wish it’ll be fixed immediately.

Poor baby… poor mommy… *sniff sniff*

Recalling My Day


It’ll be my fourth fun run tomorrow.  I need to sleep already and wake up early.  But I’m still lazing around.  I guess I’m still a bit “high” from my day.  Met up with my bff at Gaisano Mall, brought a new pair of earphones (needed another one), went window shopping.  Eventually we left to go to SM and meet up bff achi’s older sis.  Sidetripped a bit at the cosplay event, snapped a few photos then went to the Sun Shop and follow up on our renewal.

BFF said we’d be going to Lanang and celebrate Sean’s (my other godchild) 7th birthday.  I bought two gifts since I wasn’t able to give his older brother a gift last October 18.  Good thing I was already able to canvas the price of their greatly raved color-changing toy cars.  *Whew*

So off we went, then had our fill of the food, chatted with the family, then eventually headed home.  So that brings me here.  I really need to sleep (even the background music playing is Itchyworms’ “Tulog Na” – a clear indication to tuck myself in already).  Oh well… better finish my fun run playlist to keep me up to pace tomorrow.  I’ll be running with my bff tomorrow.  A first! (Last week’s run with her didn’t count).  Finally, it’ll push through.

Wish me luck!

Taking A New Route


After more than two years of employment in my work, it was only yesterday – October 29, 2010 – that I found the easiest and most affordable way in going home.  Talk about being oblivious.

Just to give a background, there are two common routes that I take in going home from work (that’s minus the lazy days I have when I decide to take a cab home instead).  Both said common routes are either double rides or one jeepney ride plus a few blocks walk.  Though I rarely saw that as a problem since the latter option provides me a short (but much needed) exercise.

So what makes this new route different?  We’ll, nothing much really.  It’s still one jeepney ride and I have the option of walking home (a really, really short walk), or take a pedicab (not preferred).  But I guess, the timeliness of taking a new route during these “dark” days of my job helps in taking a different perspective, and refreshing my brain cells.

So far, I feel safer as well in walking through this new route. Downside though is that my drop off point is at the red light district of the city. LOL.

Feeling Nostalgic


I’m feeling a bit nostalgic today.  I just recently heard something (nothing bad though) that made me think of my friends – my barkada.  Actually, I’ve been thinking a lot about them lately especially during my “alone” mall trip last Monday.  A lot of trinkets kept reminding me on how things were during our school years – laughters shared, gifts exchanged, hang outs, and companionship.  Add to that the upcoming season’s festivities (and knowing that I’m broke!) that’s going to breeze through in a couple of months.

I should be grateful for a lot of things.  And a large chunk that I need to be grateful for consists of my barkada.  It’s nearly impossible to have a get-together with the complete gang but the wonders of technology might be able to bridge the gap.  I’ll cross that bridge when I get there.  I’m not too keen on the planning department of our Christmas get-together.  But I do have ideas.  Some I’m still working out the kinks off.  So I’ll just wait till the right time to decide.

Anyway, I was reading through the old notebook my closest friends gave me.  It sure made me smile from time to time.  At least amidst the pressure and the drama of work life, I can still have that one corner, my personal “happy place” to sneak in and bask in the comfort of knowing I’m worth something – someone truly appreciated.  Reading through it, I was able to gather “proof” on the long-argued questions within the barkada.  The likes of Sino ang pillow ng pillow ng bayan?” (Who’s the pillow of the pillow of the nation/group) or “Pero sino muna ang pillow ng bayan?” (But first, who’s the pillow of the nation/group). Then there’s also EJ’s adamant denial in ever calling her boyfriend “Cookie“.  I got the proof!!! LOL!

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a page from my past

Okay, I’ll stop now.  people might get the wrong idea on the wide grin decorating my face.  Wouldn’t want to get reported of loosening one’s screws just by being myself and unhinging the tightness in my chest.

I also read my bff’s blog and I feel we’re on the same boat.  It’s sometimes easier (or better perhaps) to isolate myself from a group which I feel that I don’t belong too,or who are not receptive in your natural persona.  Why put up so much effort in being accepted when they’ve branded you in their own stereotyped thoughts?  But I guess it can’t be helped.  We’re social beings after all.

Sometimes I envy those who can be at the middle without being plastic about their interactions.  One thing I need to work out on.  But for now, I’m content with knowing there’s a niche for me in the world to be my self without being judged.

A big group BEARHUG to my barkada.  I’m missing you guys!

To read my bff’s blog, click here.

An Unexpected Call


I was commuting earlier last night heading for home when I received a call from one of my “mothers” at work – Mama Nancy.  She called me up to rant about the goings-on at work with regards to one of our committees wherein she was the chairman.  She holds the position as a committee chairman of our Canteen Committee – the committee which has received it’s endless share of complaints and issues from other employees, and currently, her main topic of her rant.

Just a brief background of the issue: one employee emailed his “grievance” via email (sent to the whole plant rather than air it out to the committee).  Emailing would have been fine but proper protocol and etiquette should have been followed.  What was his point in emailing it to the whole plant?  In addition, why use capital and bold letters in his heading and body of his email?  The content of his email does not bear repeating.  What was worse was, 2 other employees of his department seconded his email.

Talk about demeaning.  As I gathered, she had been feeling hurt and insulted since Tuesday and it was only yesterday morning that we were able to talk face to face.  Our committee had an emergency meeting to address their concerns but on our part (as members of the committee), we could feel that our PM had already made up his mind on who to side on rather than listen to both sides.  By the height of our meeting, Mama Nancy was getting emotional and then walked out.  She broke down and cried and I ended up following her and consoling her.  Afterwards, we returned to the meeting.  Seeing the guilt-ridden faces of the complainants were no consolation.  It just fueled the fire of resentment towards them.  Where was their strength?  Was it just false bravado?

So, during our conversation, she kept on ranting and letting losoe her anger and frustration.  I was merely there as a sounding board and giving the necessary cues to appease her troubled mind.  It’s been a long time since we’ve talked and I was quite surprised that regardless of not talking too long with each other, she felt comfortable in sharing with me and saw me as an ally.

What was most unexpected was her statement about me.  She really admired my strength in taking on the side comments, complaints, backstabbing, etc. that I seem to get from the office.  She’s quite amazed that I can just let it not affect me.

It was quite a surprise for me that someone would observe me that way.  I have always known that I am a tough person.  But never did I expect to be admired in such a way.  Much less someone more experienced in office politics.  I always thought of myself as someone who’s awareness is heightened especially in places unwelcomed.  And for some reason, her compliment made me feel good regardless of the many pains, frustrations, confusion, and desolation that I have been feeling during the latter part of my working days.

Though I’m still contemplating on my resignation, I am glad to have known that my stay in my current work has given other people something worth remembering by.

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

Written by Marianne Williamson

Recited by Timo Cruz (Coach Carter 2006)

Complaining Much?


The sad part about being an HR in a company is that you have to listen to every single complain every minute of every single individual within the company.  But the same courtesy is never extended to you.  Especially now with our newer management.

*SIGH*

Take for example the following complains I’ve encountered:

1.

a. One department complains because other employees from other departments are in charge of planning of outings and activities.

b. Same department complains when given an active role for another event/activities.

[Confused much?!]

2.

a. Personnel complaining of canteen concessionaire.

b.  Same personnel retracting/reconsidering their complain when canteen concessionaire will be asked to cease their operations.

[Guilty?]

3.

a. Complains in the choice of activity/event/persons.

b. But same employees wouldn’t even give out suggestions or join meetings.

ARGH!!!

And I’m stuck in the middle.

I know I should be patient with these type of individuals.  But keeping up with this all the time?  The same persons, the same complaints.  No satisfaction.

Grr…

Though complaints are welcome, but there’s something to be said about TOO MUCH!  They want you to understand their “feelings“, their preferences, and that their high position gives them the right to look down on you without even knowing the facts first.

The sad part is, I can’t talk to someone about it.  Except maybe here.  But I feel my thoughts are not well-expressed here though.  The impact might not be right.

SIGH…

Glad the day’s over though.  One down, two more days to go and it’s a payday weekend.

Looking forward to it.

Something New For Today


I wasn’t feeling well this morning so I took the day off and availed of my sick leave.  I’m glad I did.  I wasn’t too eager to return to work after the pressure I’ve just gotten by with last week.  And just recently, I found out that another “issue” has been raised.  Well it can wait until I return.

How I wish though that I could be as relaxed as this.  Hmmm.. maybe look for another job?  I’ll probably get to that sooner.

Anyway, I discovered a new program in my laptop.  It’s the Windows Live Writer.  I think I installed this a few months back and I never got to try it out.  Windows Live Writer is an application which enables a user (in this case, me) to draft blogs and post them in a blog account.  The user can connect to any blog site supported such as WordPress, Blogspot, etc… Or if you’re using a different/new blog site, you can link it up as well.  I’m using WordPress, so the process of connecting to my blog was quite easy (as long as the internet connection was good).

The benefits of using the Windows Live Writer is the ease in editing and drafting blogs.  You can also immediately post pictures which you can also edit.  Changing fonts are a breeze because it’s just like preparing Word documents.  I like using it since I’m usually not able to connect to the internet as often as I want to, so I can create drafts of my post while offline and connect for a few minutes online to post my blog.  For some, it may be a waste of time since instead of going online and immediately posting, why make a post in Windows Live Writer?  They have a point.  But if you’re internet connection is as intermittent as mine, using the Windows Live Writer is quite beneficial.

This has just been the first time I’ve used it and I’m pretty sure I’ll be discovering more about it once I get the hang of using this application.  But for now, I’m just glad I got to learn something new for today.

How about you guys, learn anything new today?   Smile

My Cheesecake Surprise


I was surprised when one of my schoolmates sent me a private message through Facebook saying she’d like to meet up with me because a certain close friend of mine asked her to give me something.  I was a bit doubtful at first since I’ve never even talked to the “messenger” when we were in high school.  But after putting two and two together (questions from a friend abroad, and hints from my bff), I decided to give it a go.

Yesterday morning, October 25, I met up with Naidz at McDonald’s Bajada.  And I was right!  The surprise was from my friend in Australia – EJ.  The surprise?  A pack of baked cheesecakes.  Aww… I was deeply touched by the surprise and the thought.  What moved me more was EJ’s message.  “Just a little something to brighten your day.

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And it did!

As proof for EJ, Naidz took a picture of me holding the pack.  When I met up with bff afterwards, she too received a pack.

Now, I’m craving for more cheesecakes!!!

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Reading Pocketbooks


Master of the Game

Image via Wikipedia

It’s been quite some time since I’ve actually focused on reading/finishing a book.  Mainly because of my busy schedule and lack of interest in general.

So I was a bit surprised in being able to finish one in just a couple of hours yesterday.  (Yay for me!)  The book I read was Sidney Sheldon’s Mistress of the Game by Tilly Bagshawe.  It was the sequel for Sidney Sheldon‘s Master of the Game which I read a couple of years ago.  I was just through sheer curiosity when I stumbled upon these two books and I’m glad I did.

The story itself was already intriguing, plus the characters were life-like in personality, add to that the palpable interaction which you could observe while reading the book and there’s no doubt as to why it was considered to be a bestselling masterpiece.

By the end of the book, I was hoping for a part 3 for the story to continue.  *SIGH*

Oh well… there’s no harm in hoping! 🙂

Sensitive Eyes


Slept late, hardly slept a wink, woke up early, and was only able to snooze a bit this afternoon.  SIGH.

It was quite a day yesterday.  Quite a number of unexpected events.  My bff and I bonded with the older sister of our bff Toffee, spent a couple of hours at their house (well… for me anyway.  Raisa slept over) and generally had a blast.  I found it particularly amusing listening to ate MM and bff excitedly sharing information of one of their most watched anime – Claymore.  I haven’t seen the series yet but listening in to their chatter, I might be giving it a go some time.  After all, I was able to grab a copy of the series.

Early this morning we bonded together again for the fun run.  Instead of going for the 5k run, we ended up following the 3k route.  We also ended up walking instead of running. LOL.  Since I’m a sweaty person by nature, I was still able sweat out impurities but not so much though.  Nevertheless, I still had fun. 🙂

After the fun run, we went to McDo to rest a bit then ate MM went ahead of us.  It was just me and my bff sharing the comfortable silence reading respective pocketbooks for our entertainment.  When I finally felt really sleepy, I called it a day with her and we went our separate ways.

Next weekend, we might be sleeping over at ate MM’s place.  We’ll probably be getting our new phones, and might be able to have a poker night then.  And go on another fun run.  Perhaps we’ll even be going to the beach as well.

Plans, plans…. hope it pushes through.

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