Monthly Archives: December 2010

The Saltwater Room


Been feeling stressed out lately.  Good thing I have music to turn to during these times.  One particular song I enjoy listening to is The Saltwater Room by Owl City.  There’s something about the song’s arrangement that just soothes my frazzled nerves.  Thanks to Adam Young for creating Owl City.

The Saltwater Room
Owl City

I opened my eyes
last night and saw you in the low light
Walking down by the bay, on the shore, staring up at the planes that aren’t there anymore
I was feeling the night grow old and you were looking so cold
Like an introvert, I drew my over shirt
Around my arms and began to shiver violently before
You happened to look and see the tunnels all around me
Running into the dark underground
All the subways around create a great sound
To my motion fatigue: farewell
With your ear to a seashell
You can hear the waves in underwater caves
As if you actually were inside a saltwater room

Time together is just never quite enough
When you and I are alone, I’ve never felt so at home
What will it take to make or break this hint of love?
We need time, only time
When we’re apart whatever are you thinking of?
If this is what I call home, why does it feel so alone?
So tell me darling, do you wish we’d fall in love?
All the time, all the time

Can you believe that the crew has gone and wouldn’t let me sign on?
All my islands have sunk in the deep, so I can hardly relax or even oversleep
I feel as if I were home some nights when we count all the ship lights
I guess I’ll never know why sparrows love the snow
We’ll turn off all of the lights and set this ballroom aglow

Time together is just never quite enough
When you and I are alone, I’ve never felt so at home
What will it take to make or break this hint of love?
We need time, only time
When we’re apart whatever are you thinking of?
If this is what I call home, why does it feel so alone?
So tell me darling, do you wish we’d fall in love?
All the time, all the time

Someone to Love You More


In every conversation made during my friend’s (a former college classmate) wedding yesterday – December 18, 2010, there would always be someone who would mention something akin to this message: “You [a girl] should marry a guy who loves her more than she loves you.”  And again, this morning my own mom said the same thing.

Thinking about it, I believe every girl would like to have that kind of relationship with their other half.  To be loved fully with no qualms and hesitations.  Someone who would give his life to you, share himself and secure about his being.  A fairytale prince charming coupled with the bad boy hero attitude that would sweep you off your feet and ride you off into the sunset because he’s SO in love with you.

*SIGH*

If only reality were that easy.  I’m not rushing though.  Just questioning if I will ever get to find that person meant for me.  Monumental events have a way of evoking deep introspection on life.  It’s scary sometimes.  But that’s life.

Sheet Music


I was looking for some music files over the net to get me started in returning to a forgotten love – music playing.  When I got to browse over the words SHEET MUSIC.  I’ve heard of this before and never really focused on what it meant until after the 1st episode of Glee‘s season 2.

So what is sheet music?

Wikipedia describes it as “hand-written or printed form of music notation that usesModern musical symbols; like its analogs—books, pamphlets, etc.—the medium of sheet music typically is paper (or, in earlier times, parchment), although the access to musical notation in recent years includes also presentation on computer screens“.

Wow.  So that’s what it meant.

Anyway, I got a smorgasborg of sheet music to whet my appetite.  Though there were some that I couldn’t find, it just needs time for deep-seated searching.  I’m planning on buying something to get me on in my music improvement.

So hope all goes well.  Wish me luck guys! 🙂

What’s Up? Smile!


Nothing new really.  I just had a long exercise of my face muscles this afternoon.  My “darling” came for a visit after arriving from abroad.  I never realized how much I missed him until that moment that I had a hard time containing my laughter and smiles in front of many people.  Like I said, my face muscles were aching by the time he left.

Some would say it’s too early to be back to normal after a loved ones passing.  And sometimes I feel I shouldn’t be too happy because I am still grieving.  But life has other plans.  And I find myself, though sad at times, focusing more on things that make me smile and feel better.

So here’s a tribute to the day that passed… SMILEYS FOR EVERYONE!!!

“cheshire grin”

So cute!!! 🙂

Here’s another one:

sooo happy…

Oh c’mon!  I know you want to.  Go ahead!  Laugh out loud! 🙂

mouth-pulling fr

And I have friends who are like these guys. ↑↑↑

And here’s a little “cutie” thing that’ll make you smile:

awww… so cute!!!

So cute!!! 🙂 Hope I made you all smile! 🙂

Movie Watching vs. Old-School Games


My nieces kept calling me up to join them in watching The Chronicles of Narnia: Voyage of the Dawn Treader 3D version.  Oh how I wanted to watch the movie!  And my half-brother was going to treat me too.  Unfortunately, I had a pending responsibility at home earlier and Mom was not yet replying on what time she’d be going home.  My half-bro also made a boo-boo.  Instead of getting tickets for the 3:00 PM show, he purchased the 12:50PM viewing instead.  So I never got the chance.  When my mom arrived home before 3PM, it was already too late.  I ended up meeting up with them after the movie.

The Chronicles of Narnia: Voyage of the Dawn Treader

My bro treated me at McDonald’s for a BigMac Meal.  YUM!  Yes, I was hungry and don’t blame me!  I missed eating breakfast and lunch.  So that was already my meal for the 2 meals I missed.

Afterwards, we headed home.  Though mom was uncomfortable with having guests, she just kept silent.  My younger niece played endlessly with my board games and card games.  We played Monopoly Deal, Millionaire’s Game, Bendomino, and more Bendomino.  We also played my rubik’s cube on the side.

I especially enjoyed my nieces’ reaction when their Dad claimed that they should get home already since it was a school day the next day.  They kept on begging and begging their Dad to stay longer.  Unfortunately (or fortunately!  Since we couldn’t offer any dinner yet), Kuya’s word prevailed.

My BGF arrived and was saddened that the kids already went home.  But we ended up staying up quite late since I taught him how to play Magic: The Gathering which he enjoyed so much.  But I still won 3 out of 3 games we played.  LOL.

It sure was a fun day!  Hope there’ll be more of this to come! 🙂

Sobbing In My Sleep


A few days ago, Mom told me that I’ve been sobbing in my sleep the past night and calling out for her.  I was surprised.  I don’t remember dreaming about something bad [or sad for that matter] to make me sob.

Call me stupid but I don’t remember any lesson about sobbing in dreams during college.  Surely it has something to do with the unconscious but to extract the exact meaning, it would have to be subjective by nature.  So if that’s the case, perhaps it has something to do with the goings-on in my work life.  SHEESH!  No solace whatsoever!  Or maybe it still has something to do with my dad’s passing.  I dreamed of him a few weeks ago (I think I posted it here), and there’s no denying that I’m still missing him.

A lot of reasons… it’s my mind that’s not focusing.

Anyway, it’s a Saturday night and I’m all by myself at home.  Mom’s out and will be back tomorrow so if I feel like bawling out my emotions I’m free to do so with no worries that someone is watching or worrying someone at all.  But my mind’s too hyped up with many thoughts that I don’t think I can dwell much on a certain subject.  I’m not sure if it’s a good thing or a bad one.

I’m currently looking up online meanings for sobbing during sleep but the results are too general.  Or maybe I’m just typing the wrong keywords to narrow down my search.  Oh well… like I said, my focus needs more focus.

I need more introspection.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!


It’s December 1 and it’s officially the Christmas month.  It’s a lonely Christmas since Dad just died.  A lot of things seem missing.  *SIGH*

With regards to work, a lot of changes have occurred beginning today.  We have a new Operations Manager, and our current Production Manager will be until the end of the month only.  Quite a shocker actually.  But I guess it can’t be helped.  Especially when there are SOME people who have closer ties to higher up management.  SHEESH!  Add to that, a major reorganization has happened in our plant.  The way I see it, we’ve all become pawns in a big chess set.  From managers down to rank and file personnel.  Why do I say so?  It’s because with the current reorg, no manager from our plant has a final say in decision-making.  Quite a sad state actually.  But that’s just my opinion.

Ok… too serious already.  It’s supposed to be a light post. 🙂  Anyway,  hope everyone will be having a very MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! 🙂

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