I wasn’t the type of girl who imagined how my own “dream” wedding would play out… planning the details of the wedding… reception… vows… none. Now that a number of my school batchmates have gotten married, have started a family and on the family way. I feel so left behind.
It isn’t a rice.
It definitely isn’t. But it doesn’t stop me from taking a step back, review my life, and start thinking things… missing things…
Being lonely. Alone.
It’s not something I want to talk about out loud. My words may not do it justice. Trying to keep busy and doing other things but at the most inopportune moments, it creeps back into my thoughts. And I’m feeling like such a LOSER. I should be on top of these things, but I just can’t shake it off.
I guess it’s not really about settling down. More of missing companionship. Part of the pains of being an only child perhaps…