Monthly Archives: June 2012

A Perfect Fit

The sound of the rain outside my bedroom window serves as a perfect encore of standing ovation on such a whirlwind day.  I have just been given my notice for my employment with my alma mater.

A career shift to my once-desired-chosen-path actualized.  A self-fulfilling prophecy.  A dream come true.

Mom’s beside herself with joy.  A couple of my former high school teachers are ecstatic.  My friends are all excited.

So am I.  I  simply cannot explain the plethora of emotions coursing throughout my body with such a news.  Suddenly, I feel inept.  The insecurities I’ve had while still in school seem to wash over me.  With five years of doing only HR work, detached from the academic world, how could I be competent in the development of young students?  In addition, I have to finish my postgraduate studies in two years time.

Makes me think that I am way over my head.  But then again, I’ve been wanting to pursue my masters degree for quite some time now, and this is the right push I’ve been needed.  Though it seems more of a shove now.

It’s just amazing how life works out.  I remember projecting to myself when I was still young that I’d like to finish my Master’s degree within two years and look at how fate decides.  Funny, right?

Frankly, I’m a bit worried… and overwhelmed.  Worried that I might not finish in two years my masteral and lose my job.  (Quite a possibility too since last day of late enrolment for MA was today and I still need to take an Entrance Exam to check if I’d be qualified.  I just hope I’ll pass the exams this coming Thursday, and that my new head would be kind enough to help me smooth over my  late enrolment.  I don’t think I can accomplish finishing my masters within a year and a half only.)  And overwhelmed of the responsibilities my new job entails even when I haven’t started yet.  It seemed so easy to theorize during the interview.  The actuation process is the tricky part.  Time to suit up!

Well.. I Won’t know until Monday on how this goes, but I’m wishing for the best!

I’m not perfect.  But I hope to be a perfect fit in my new job.


A Turn in the Month

It’s almost been a month since I resigned from my previous job.  I have relished on the past few weeks waking up anytime I wanted to, then going back to sleep again.  Feels like high school summer.  And for the past few days, it’s been a sick season for me.  I’ve been under the weather due to colds.  I couldn’t go out, break a sweat healthily, and I wasn’t up for the task in taking care of my business (seeing that it was handling food and giving it out to students).

Unemployment bombs.  Really.  I’m slowly depleting my savings and it’s not a happy thought.  I’ve only applied to one company and although a lot of people might question the wisdom of my decision, let me just state that  the vacancy I have applied for has been my dream job ever since I was still in high school.  For almost the whole month, I’ve gone through a panel interview, battery of Psychology tests, and the English proficiency.  There’s another test that I’m still scheduled for… with the date not yet set.

Quite… saddening really.  But I’ll live.

One thing I’m thankful for is the time I get to spend catching up on my reading, and watching series finales to unfold.

When we hit our lowest point, we are open to the greatest change.

– Avatar Aang, Legend of Korra S1 Finale

Begrudgingly (to say the least), I resolved to make the best out of my small business.  It suddenly became clear to me how I envisioned how it would look like to make it genuinely appealing to my target clientele.  Since our space is a bit small, a quaint snack place would fit right in.  This morning, I started in making a rough draft for my Ice Craze when I received a phone call from the HR of my alma mater asking me if I was still available for the position I have applied for and that I am to report on Monday to the unit I was interviewed on, and go to the HR office on Saturday!

I’m not yet 100 % certain if I’ve been accepted, but things are looking up!

Wish me luck on both my endeavors!

I have a scheduled English Proficiency Test tomorrow.  One step in my application for a job my alma mater.  Somehow I am terrified of my test.  Though it’s not my first time to take on such, I feel that so much more is at stake right now.  Will I add suffice when they size me up?

I know that I’m overthinking it.  But being an alumna, there’s the pressure of knowing that MEDIOCRITY is not acceptable.  Will I be able to exercise my full capabilities or will I stunt my own talents. SIGH…

One step at a time… one step at a time…

Better review and brush up on my command of both written and oral “expertise” in English.

Wish me luck!

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